Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Girl is gone but the bitch is here.

I am not even going to lie that this entry will be on Gone Girl and just Gone Girl.

I am also not even going to lie that I have been so lazy, busy and mostly lazy that I have not written in this page for a long long long time. I apologize but my life as a graduate and an unemployed graduate of that has been one whirlwind adventure of a last minute 3 weeks trip to Europe and then finally, hitting back to the cold reality of uncertainty all thanks to coming back home without a proper job.

So anyhow... the past few days, my life revolved around Gone Girl. I finally picked up the book over the weekends and perhaps, the first time after so long, I was barely able to put the book down. I haven't been able to read any fiction books so voraciously after choosing to study Politics. It didn't take me long to finish the book, about 2 days - I have to factor catching up over drama series, planning the week's schedule and appeasing the royal highness at home. I enjoyed the book albeit the a little 'hmmm, why would anyone choose to return to a pretty much useless-used-my-money-to-set-up-his-own-bar-and-a-fucking-cheater-no-less-husband' ending. Of course, after reading the last chapters again, it dawned upon me that, she was in control. Don't you just love the idea of power and control? I love Amy Dunne. I find her character charming despite being a psychotic bitch. Perhaps, it is the idea of being committed to win and not being a quitter somehow caught my attention and I was awed by how disciplined she was to make sure she carried out her plan flawlessly. On top of that, yeah, it is that psychotic bitch-ness.

Ever since Gone Girl premiered here, I have been hearing raving reviews as well as those who thought that the film adaptation wasn't up to their expectations. I, finally, watched it tonight with my awesome godmother who to my surprise was willing to watch it with me. I reckon I would never have thought I'd be watching a R21 movie with a parent figure but I can now officially strike that off my life list (not that I have one to start with). In my opinion, the movie was a pretty amazing adaptation of the book itself. The cast ensemble was excellent, the script was well written and Rosamund Pike, can we just take a second and appreciate her beauty and brilliant talent? I was thoroughly convinced that she would actually make a real Amy Dunne or basically a crazy bitch from hell. She was definitely the right choice for the role. The movie was more than two hours long but it was bearable and I reckon it did portray most of the important parts of the book to fit into the silver screen. But with all the books to film adaptation, one will always feel the film will definitely fall short of something like not enough portrayal of yet seemingly an important character despite him being a pretty small role in the drama between Amy and her scumbag husband (I am not even sorry that I actually dislike Nick). I am talking about Desi. Desi Collings. It'd be great if the audience especially those who have not read the book are able to find out more about him and why he would come off as creepy, possessive, another cray cray dude. My godmother couldn't help but whispered to me and said, 'he is creeeeeepy!' during the movie. All I could think of was if only she knew exactly who Desi is and why he would come off as such. Personally, I love Desi but I reckon, he might end up dead in my hands too for being too possessive and for trying to be that saviour/white knight to a damsel who is clearly screwed.

Like Amy, I am the only child to my parents and I found that this fictional character and I do have a few things in common and unfortunately also a huge part of her that I seem to lack which is clearly upsetting. I do wish that I had at least half of her discipline, not a quitter attitude and a hell lot of that bitch that will make a man feel like a man or whatever that the person should feel or be and also that mind never seem to stop thinking and working plus that layers of complicated wretchness. The recipe to control and power.

Many people have lamented that Gone Girl is something you would not want to watch on a first date. If you ask me, I would gladly watch that on my first date simply because it is an easy way out to be in touch with the reality of the relationship in a marriage, the constant hard work of up keeping, peace making, living up to each others' expectations, supposed unconditional love (really? unconditional between two people, really?) and where people go wrong - when they start to get lazy, when they start to see other people. But yeah, the part where Desi got brutally murdered by her, I guess, that wasn't needed at all and it would make a good way to scar someone for a few nights at least. (One of my few favourite scenes from the movie was how she took him down, girl has got one hell of an attitude to not mess with and one really fucked up brains) Of course there are also those who now have a completely ruined mindset of marriages. All I can say, good luck. I am just thankful and pretty proud to be a cynic of this thing call marriage. If your marriage is good, not rocky and have lasted this far, good on you. I certainly am happy for you but hey, don't come up to me and talk to me about marriage. Not on my priority at the moment or for the next twenty years. The movie have taught me a few things about marriage and they are really useful lessons. Thanks, Amy, as crazy, psychotic and 100% bitch you are, you make a good teacher to teach people on marriage, me at least. Haha!

I enjoyed the movie and the book thoroughly and it is officially top movie for the year for me. I actually do not mind to go for a second round of the movie. Perhaps, a second round will be a slightly different experience for me. Who knows?

Here is a favourite exchange from the movie,

Nick Dunne: You fucking cunt!

Amy Dunne: I'm the cunt you married. The only time you liked yourself was when you were trying to be someone this cunt might like. I'm not a quitter, I'm that cunt. I killed for you; who else can say that? You think you'd be happy with a nice Midwestern girl? No way, baby! I'm it.

Nick Dunne: Fuck. You're delusional. I mean, you're insane, why would you even want this? Yes, I loved you and then all we did was resent each other, try to control each other. We caused each other pain.

Amy Dunne: That's marriage.
Till next time bitches, don't screw up your relationships and don't get lazy. From what I have learnt so far in life, relationships are constant work in progress and a relationship is not an end product but just work and more work. The memories you make while working on it probably are the product of a relationship.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

The irony.

Funny how people think that at certain age you shouldn't have experienced certain things like suicide or even attempted suicide.

Here are a few things that come as a shock to some people when they learnt more about me. Just a few things for starters.

1. I have seen more deaths (natural ones) than births.
2. I have witnessed more people driven to the edge than being comfortable at where they are.
3. I have for one at my teenage years found more convincing reasons to die than be alive.
4. I have probably ate more medicine than some of my peers which probably is the cause of why my body is whacked.